White elephant

This is on a canvas. I had Micheal Reisman. His poems were amazing. 

Blackout

Reveal

                                     I just want to leave this blank.

I'm Emily Hanks.

                                 

                                 

Music.

messed up.

Darling you should've known

I had it written all over me in spilled ink.

Dark black, just like my heart.

But my heart was already disintegrated.

And before I could realize it, the blood in my mouth

was soon in yours.

Consuming you whole.

I was the stone stabbing your ribs.

The blade in your back just touching your heart.

I was ripping you apart from the inside out.

I was making you numb just like me.

So you wouldn't feel my pain.

Instructions.

I want to inhale second hand smoke, just to feel a buzz.
 I yearn for a love that's false.
     and I still have my warm tears on my soft checks.
       There is vivid pain in every breathe.
           I'm doing this for you.
              I need instructions to get through these days.
                  I tremble just to touch you ....one more god damn time.
                      Even if your skin would burn me, Id take the chance.
                           I did with my heart.
                                        Even if I lost sight of my map.

& I don't have instructions.

Lungs

I had stars in my lungs. But I burned them all out with the cigarettes I was smoking. My lungs are crowded with self hatered. Oh my god I can't breathe. So peel my ribcage back, and cover my heart with love. That someday I'll burn away. But my ribs are bruised, from my heart pounding so hard thinking about you. As you say I'm heartless and I said no, I've just learned to use my heart less. 

As it's harder to breathe, as though my lungs have collapsed. Inhale....exhale. 

We kiss slowly. I see you in my dreams kissing girls who aren't me. Dammit did you look like heaven when I only felt like hell. And something about you is so addictive. What if I told you, your the only thing keeping me alive right now?