Music.

messed up.

Darling you should've known

I had it written all over me in spilled ink.

Dark black, just like my heart.

But my heart was already disintegrated.

And before I could realize it, the blood in my mouth

was soon in yours.

Consuming you whole.

I was the stone stabbing your ribs.

The blade in your back just touching your heart.

I was ripping you apart from the inside out.

I was making you numb just like me.

So you wouldn't feel my pain.

Instructions.

I want to inhale second hand smoke, just to feel a buzz.
 I yearn for a love that's false.
     and I still have my warm tears on my soft checks.
       There is vivid pain in every breathe.
           I'm doing this for you.
              I need instructions to get through these days.
                  I tremble just to touch you ....one more god damn time.
                      Even if your skin would burn me, Id take the chance.
                           I did with my heart.
                                        Even if I lost sight of my map.

& I don't have instructions.